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Yo, I am soo bored! I'm waiting for my grandma to come get me and take me to my cousin's band concert with her. My mom volunteered me for something again. OH, well. I have my play tonight. See ya!

I'm not depressed anymore, it seems like i have been going up and down all week! Its disgusting, i'm gonna try to stay in whatever mood i wake up in tomorrow.

OMG! I have been having cramps all day! And they have been getting worse, they hurt like no other! I hate cramps! Blah, my whole American Cultures class was freaking out at me because i stabbed a thumbtack into my arm. They were like ''you didnt actually push it in''. So i pulled it out and I started bleeding and it was like dripping down my arm and some girl freaking puked! It was Awesome! But it kinda hurt, i must have gotten right on a nerve. Cause with all the times I've cut myself, things like that don't bother me anymore. No pain or anything. I cut my arm really bad one time and my mom saw it, and she was like ''why do you do that'', cause she has no idea what i go through on a daily basis. So I said to her ''because of all the mental pain I am in right now, you have no idea how good it feels to see the blood and feel actual physical pain''. She just called my therapist. I hate people sometimes. I wish that they would just keep to themselves and stop caring what i do to myself. It's my body, i can cut it if I freaking want to.

Yo Peoples,
I felt sick today, but at least i didn't come home sick or puke in the bathroom. Blah it was all brown and chunky, lol, you didn't really need to hear that.  Or read that i guess it would be for you rather.  Yeah. I felt Especially bad in 4th period and i thought about going to the nurse and asking for some tylenol or syonide or something, but i didn't. Syonide would be fun, I wonder what it tastes like. When I am old and am going to die anyway, i will have to try that. I just realized something guys, the little smiley for your mood that i have up, looks like it is about to puke, that's exactly how i felt when i changed it. But im gonna change it now cause i am really hyper. So yeah. I think I am going to buy my friend Sarah's viola from her when she gets her new one cause my one is all old and crappy. Byezz!  <3

Argh. I came home from school early today, sick. I had another migrane. I hate Migranes. They Suck sooo hard. But, what can you do? Oh Well. Blah, I just decided why have a xanga and waste another usless password and username when i can just blog on here, so i deleted my xanga. um...yeah. I'm gonna go.
                                                                              --pix